So, it has been a long time!!
well things are good, I am married to the best spouse in the world, I enter this blog very rarely, because I know no one reads it,
I know that because last time I wrotE here was the last time he beat me up and I couldn't walk out for a week.... And I got no response.... Hence I talk to myself here,
which apparently is exactly what I need because that way I can express myself without being worried he will find out
(and the next day I am latterly dead)
i have the frequency known to how often I see the reality and ugliness-
when he is really vosious to me....
on google it says "the last time u visited this website was ..."
about a year ago
so once a year the beautiful relationship and great love goes away,
and I am beat up!
so , today!
I was on eggshells- telling myself to hold it , not to yell, not to express myself at all
and that is why I am NOT beaten up right now
yay!
Alive
with agony......